All Duh

I am all duh...that would be how my daughter said all done when she was younger. I am tired of the Army get to play games with my emotions. My spouse has been gone to long and I just want him back. He was supposed to be home possibly as early as this past Monday. Well being the pessimist I am I knew better than to expect him home early, so I wasn't surprised when that didn't pan out and we went to the original date of the 15th. Well when they pushed that back to Sunday night, I still wasn't surprised but nor could I laugh as I did the first time. However when he called last night to say we are now looking at Monday I lost it. I have two little people who are desperate to see their dad, I am trying to live a life normal while in limbo, and mostly importantly I am just done! I fought the good fight, I know I CAN do it, I just don't want to! How would you feel if 2 days before Christmas someone said "Hold it, wait, we are actually not going to allow you to have any type of Celebration on the 25th, all celebrating will take place on the 27th." Would you handle that well? Maybe if you are like me and could live with or without Christmas Hoopla, however in that case I beg you to put some date of importance in the example and work with me here! Nonetheless I will keep hoping Monday pans out....